*sob.

i wish you could understand me well enough. I wish you could wake me up in the morning greeting me 'goodmorning' and smile. I wish you could support me in everything,in my life,my studies.i wish you can be the one who protects me from danger,from sickness and pain,not to be the reason why i'm hurt.i wish you can be the one who pat on my shoulder saying '' you can do it,just try.'' i need you to make me feel better.i need you to say everything is gonna be okay,eventhough its not.i need you to give me advices, not to break my spirits. I need you to help, help me to live this life happily.i need someone who could love me,not to be the one who teaches me about hatred. You teach me how to hate this life, to give up.you make me feel like i'm useless. Come on dad, be a better man. )': i need you to help.i'm down and i'm giving up. I got no more confidence.