i'm back. (:

i'm feeling sooooooo down. :'D

emm, i wanna delete my blog.


and to you, painter. i'm sorry i didn't have chance to talk to you the other day.
i just don't have anything to say.
and 'm sure you know that we don't have anything to do anymore.so please,
stop texting me on the phone. i don't hate you,and sure everything you said in the cbox is not true.
thanks for your compliments , i appreciate that. take care,ex boyfriend.

okaaay (; adios.



JENNY's girl.

Pelengkap hidupku. J. :3

Aku bagai laut tak bertepi dan tak berkarang
Aku bagai bintang yang tak ditemani malam
Melihat dirimu ada senyum canda dan tawa
Yang membuat aku tak ingin pergi darimu

Teringat janji lamamu kepadaku
Teringat aku teringat
Teringat saat kau masih ada di sini
Temaniku sepanjang hari

Bila kau pergi jauh ingatlah aku
Bila ku di sampingmu peluk tubuhku
Bila kau rindu aku panggil namaku
Ku datang menemuimu

Peluk erat jasadku jangan lepaskan
Tetaplah kau di sini harungi malam
Karena hanya dirimu belahan jiwa
Pelengkapku di dunia

 

Teringat janji lamamu kepadaku
Teringat aku teringat
Teringat saat kau masih ada di sini
Temaniku sepanjang hari

Bila kau pergi jauh ingatlah aku
Bila ku di sampingmu peluk tubuhku
Bila kau rindu aku panggil namaku
Ku datang menemuimu

Peluk erat jasadku jangan lepaskan
Tetaplah kau di sini harungi malam
Karena hanya dirimu belahan jiwa
Pelengkapku di dunia

Bila kau pergi jauh ingatlah aku
Bila ku di sampingmu peluk tubuhku
Bila kau rindu aku panggil namaku
Ku datang menemuimu

Peluk erat jasadku jangan lepaskan
Tetaplah kau di sini harungi malam
Karena hanya dirimu belahan jiwa
Pelengkapku di dunia 

):

. . . . . . . . . . .

I really wanna know ):

hmm.

i just woke up and there was a message from my ex saying HAPPY ANNIVERSARRY, EX-GF. emm.happy anniversarry too.(:


''andai hati dilukai,tiada maaf ku beri.''
Memories.
They are the only thing that remains the
same, even when feelings FADE, places
CHANGED and everyone WALKS AWAY .

Tinggal kenangan. (:

is it you,all these time? bah,okay. (: if its true,why don't you just tell me, make me stop feeling curious and stop being mysterious. eh,it rhymes.haha. i'm not mad, its just...sigh. (:

hmm. Is it you FA?

Pusara Di Lebuhraya

Dalam perjalan ini
Menuju destinasi
Berbagai lebuhraya dilalui Perjalananku terhenti
Di lebuhraya ini
Terpandang pusara diam menyepi Terbayanglah kisah lalu
Bila kau disampingku
Bagaikan temasya dalam hidupku
Kini cinta tiada lagi
Berkubur dalam sepi
Dan pusara ini menjadi bukti
Betapa aku lemah di sini
Melihat cinta ini pergi
Di sini bermula bicara
Terpedaya
Dan bicara itu membunuhnya
Kini engkau tiada lagi
Yang tinggal hanya mimpi
Dan cintaku yang telah bersemadi
Ku teruskan perjalanan
Ku tinggalkan impian
Ke arah tujuan cinta abadi

what a lonely night.

aku mentari tapi tak menghangatkanmu.
aku pelangi tak memberi warna di hidupmu.
aku sang bulan tak menerangi
malammu.
aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan.

aku hanya insan biasa.

i would never take you for granted, boy. you complete my life. (: i may not be the best but you know i already tried my best. trust me, i'll never do anything to hurt you. i'll always take good care of you. you means the world to me. i'll be the girl who makes you feel better whenever you're sad. i'll be the girl who makes your day filled with joy. i'll be the girl that supported you in everything. and i'll be the one who loves you for who you are.

you don't have to change dear. (:

There's always that one special person that no matter what they do to you, you just can't let them go.

never change. (:

If you hear this
Wherever you are
Just know I need you here
I need you near me now
You were brighter than the pale white
moon
Reflected in your eyes
So I guess it's no surprise
I can't forget you
No matter what I do
I will always carry you

In my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change

I just need to slow down for awhile
I'm missing your warm smile and the
way you used to say
Stay with me until the daylight breaks
No matter what it takes
Just say you'll stay
Just say you'll stay

I will always carry you
In my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change

PAINTER, PAINTER !

i wanna know about you. :o

still awake ):

its 2.03 am in the morning.i caaaan't sleep. :(

i didn't come to school today.got fight with dad early in the morning. )': i miss my besties. I'm having my june exam in a month and i'm still playing. belajar pulang tapi,hmm. mudahantah pass.btw, aku curious pasal this person, PAINTER.i don't know why,but i really wanna know.and and i clean up my room this morning,beeersih.suka alai.hehe.and and my hamster hilang tadi ): but ada balik after ku taruh makanannya. Ui hamster.jadinya kau datang untuk makan saja??? hehehe.i'm trying to cheer myself. ): i really really feel down. btw rantai ku hilang entah kemana. ): eh eh i revise maths today :D but tetidur in the next 15 minutes.hehe paidah.eh eh i lost my beloved pillow? ): do YOU see my pillow?=o aku masani masih didapur.pakai baju bula.lawa? :p hehe sasak kali eh.i'm craving for spaghetti tapi asal ku kan bali spaghetti di sekulah,aku teliat makanan lain,inda tia ku jadi bali.--' mataku beangkung ): i cried to let it out, my misery,my sadness. but even i cry, i can't forget about it and it hurts. Ok dad,u win.stop it.bukan pasal cinta ni yo.hehe.btw aku lapar.dah ku makan.diet ku ni.pasal fikiran ku inda tenang ah.): kalau ku makan masa cemani ani inda alang alang.karang naik baratku.laaaaaaagi ku sedih.hehehe. Ok bye.aku mau stalk urang pakai fb adiku. Hehehe.laaaayan terus blog alai. :p

sleepwell and goodmorning.

akn, april 21, 2010.
Happy ex-anniversarry, ex-boyfriend.

fa, april 28, 2009.
Happy ex-anniversarry, ex-boyfriend.

i'm nothing if i ain't got you boy.

Share my life,
Take me for what I am.
Cause I'll never change
All my colors for you.
Take my love,
I'll never ask for too much,
Just all that you are
And everything that you do.
I don't really need to look
Very much further
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside. Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
Your love I'll remember forever.
Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don't walk away from me.
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you.
You see through,
Right to the heart of me.
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love.
I never knew Love
like I've known it with you.
Will a memory survive,
One I can hold on to?

memories. 282.

Wednesday, October
13, 2010 at 11:53pm

aku amat mencintaimu
tetapi jodoh kita tiada ..
kini aku sudah dimilikki
dan juga bahagia
bersama sidia yang ku
cintai .. tetapi setiap kali kesejukan malam
mencengkam jiwa ini ..
aku mulai
mengingatimu.
terkenangkan disaat
kita bersuka dan berduka, dan setiap kali
itu juga aku menitiskan
air mata,
mengenangkan
perhubungan cinta kita
yang hangat tiba-tiba terputus ditengah jalan.
sedih , sedih , teramat
sedih.
aku seperti dapat
merasa yang kau juga
tak bahagia, namun sudah lama kau
dimilikinya. tak
mungkin kau
meninggalkannya. tapi
bagiku, jiwa ini akan
terus kekosongan jika tidak terisi dengan jiwa
mu yang begitu lembut
dan manja, membelai
hati ini yang selalu
keresahan. aku mahu
mengejar kembali kasih yang hilang.
apa yang patut aku
lakukan dengan sidia ?
aku juga
sayangkannya, aku
tidak akan dapat melukakan hatinya. dia
telah besama-samaku
di waktu aku susah, dia
telah banyak bekorban.
aku telah banyak
menyusahkannya. dia telah berjaya
mengangkatku dari
rebah sehingga aku
berjaya dalam hidup
yang hina ini.
namun aku mahu mengejar cinta yang
tak kesampaian itu. aku
mesti tahu adakah aku
boleh atau sebaliknya.
aku tidak akan
mengalah. aku tak boleh lagi menahan
tangisan setiap kali
wajahmu terpancar
sekilas lalu. '' ..... , ada
kah aku akan dapat
memilikimu semula ?
jawap

*sob.

i wish you could understand me well enough. I wish you could wake me up in the morning greeting me 'goodmorning' and smile. I wish you could support me in everything,in my life,my studies.i wish you can be the one who protects me from danger,from sickness and pain,not to be the reason why i'm hurt.i wish you can be the one who pat on my shoulder saying '' you can do it,just try.'' i need you to make me feel better.i need you to say everything is gonna be okay,eventhough its not.i need you to give me advices, not to break my spirits. I need you to help, help me to live this life happily.i need someone who could love me,not to be the one who teaches me about hatred. You teach me how to hate this life, to give up.you make me feel like i'm useless. Come on dad, be a better man. )': i need you to help.i'm down and i'm giving up. I got no more confidence.

you're my everything ♥

Bila Diri Disayangi

Terdengar bisikan mesra
Kalimah keramat bermentera
Bermulanya siang berakhir malamku
Tak akan ku jemu menyebut namamu Tiada batasan waktu
Tiada tempat mu tertentu
Di gunung di lembah,
di darat, di air
Siapa pun hamba, keikhlasan doa,
keagungan kasih
Merubah takdir
Bila ku sedari diri disayangi
Langkah kaki ini semakin berani
Bila terkeliru ku ucap namamu
Terasa diriku kembali dipandu
Engkau yang pertama tiada akhirnya
Aku dalam kegelapan engkaulah
cahaya
Izinkahlah aku menumpang di sini
Di bawah naungan kasih dan sayang mu
Ku berserah diri
Tiada batasan waktu
Tiada tempat mu tertentu
Di gunung di lembah, di darat, di air
Siapa pun hamba, keikhlasan doa,
keagungan kasih
Merubah takdir..

(': tetap dalam anganku,tetap dalam anganku.

Kau Tetap Dalam Anganku - Azie

Sekilas ku teringat
Detik-detik yang lepas
Indahnya perkasihan
Semacam ku rasakan
Tak sanggup rasanya
Sesaat ditinggalkan
Dan seboleh-bolehnya
Ku ingin mengikutmu
Walau ke lurah dalam
Aku sanggup terluka
Demi kerana sayang
Apa jua kurela
Jiwa dan raga
Engkau saja yang sentiasa
Bermain di fikiran
Tiap masa dan ketika
Tak terlintas di hati ini
Untuk curang kepadamu
Oh kekasih
Aku berharap pendirian engkau juga
Sama-sama pertahankan kebahagiaan
Walau diacu belati tajam mengugutku
Cinta aku kasih aku tetap untukmu
Sampai ke mati
Hanya itu mampu ku beri
Tersentak lamunan
Bila diri ini disentuh
Oleh seseorang
Ku cuba damaikan
Hati yang kian berkocak
Agar perasaan sedihku ini
Tidak nampak
Di pusara ini
Ku sedia berdiri
Bersama doa-doa
Tak putus kuhulurkan
Itulah tanda kasih... kasih
Kasih yang sebenar
Wajah dan senyumanmu
Sentiasa kuangankan
Aduhai sayang

(':

Sekian lama hidupku merana,
menantimu yang tak pasti, ku
korbankan sgalanya, semua kerana
harapan yang kau beri.
Tiada guna lagi tuk menanti, hidupku harus ceria, saatku tertawa gembira,
seperti dulu kala.
Kini hatiku sudah sepi, tiada kamu didalamnya, namun sentiasa ada
ruang, untukmu mengisi kesepian.
Hatiku cukup terluka, biarlah terubat
semula, biarlah ku pergi darimu,
melupakan kenangan lalu.
Takkan ku tangisimu lagi, ku relakan
hati ini, untuk yang lebih berhak memiliki dan menjaganya.

):

The way i felt for you i felt it was
very true, Before you came along,
my life seemed all wrong. But you
came along and dried my tears, you
took away ever fret and every fear.
You broke through my darkness and
shined some light like the sun you
filled me with a warm delight.
You seemed to erase my past and i
swore our love would forever last.
But today you told me what i feared,
you told me that our end neared,
you said the pain was too great and
if i was to say something, it was
already too late. You said you would
miss my gentle touch but you did
not want to talk again because the
pain was too much. You said you
were not right for me, you wanted
me to spread my wings and be free.
You said
" i want you to have the
best, cant you see?
I dont want to let
you go but this is how it has to be.
You are everything i've ever wanted.
It was to you my problems i
confronted. Please forget what we
had and baby, please dont be sad.
Please dont cry. Please, please just
try. I love you and i know you love
me too "
you turned around and
slowly walked away. The pain was
so great that 'i love you', i was
unable to say.
Over and over in my head. It
repeated all the things that you said. I
then remember that you told me to
forget you and our love. But how
could i forget something i knew was
sent from up above.
I knew that you wanted me to move
on, and that you would want me to
stay strong. And for you, i will do
that. Just leave my life where it is at
and then start a new one to shine
and fill me with that delight. I will find
a new sun. I will find someone that
you would want for me. Someone
as perfect as you.

He Is We- Prove You Wrong